Wednesday, December 30, 2009


Back in April I met a young man while I was in Kyrgyzstan. I spent the day with him in the back seat of J's truck while J & J and I were out and about. We took J's adopted Babushka to see the doctor in Ttown. Then to her new home in Kemin. We stopped by the young man's home where he spoke with presumably his parents. This young man has had a very very hard life. A life full of abuse, neglect, fear and sadness. Our next stop was to pick up Acelbek at his parent's house. J&J needed to speak with the parents and left me outside in the truck with my young friend. Now mind you. This young man has now spent several hours in the back of the truck with me. And he has spoken not a word of English. I guess I just assumed..... Anyway a very drunk man tried getting in the truck while J&J were in the house. My young friend came to my side and talked this man away from the car. He then posted himself as a sentry guard watching the whole outside of the truck. ( I had a bodyguard!) After picking up Acelbek we speed off to finish our day at a wonderful restraunt. J walks away and my young friend starts speaking IN ENGLISH. I think my head spun in a circle! I looked at him, chuckled and proclaimed " you speak English?!! We have been sitting in silence all day in the back of the truck and you speak English???!!!" He and J chuckled and we had a nice talk IN ENGLISH. As soon as J returned the English stopped. Hmmmm quite funny. I gave my young friend a huge hug when we left them at the taxi stop. I think I suprised the heck out of him... Then off we sped. I figured I had seen the last of my young friend. However one of my last days in Kg we ran into this young man again. And again I gave him an unexpected huge hug! He was all smiles as I made him talk to me more this meeting. There was just something about this kid I was drawn to. I sure hope he is doing well.
Ok why am I telling this story?? Because I think it very ironic maybe another sign I am supposed to follow this path God has set...... My young freind's name .... Kolya... Our Little Guy's name Nicholas,Nikolai or per my agency he is called... Kolya!!!!!!!
Dear God... I really like how you work!! Even though I would hae loved to have Shelby home already I am starting to see there are many many reasons for the delay. So keep showing me the way and I will try to catch your leads. And don't get mad when sometimes I am just not understanding... Just keep sending me the reminders that I am not in control.. YOU are...

Day # 1 Paperwork begin-a-gin

Let the paperwork chase begin! This morning I started by having a chat with the very nice man at Philadelphia USCIS office. Officer CoSk. I won't mention his name. He has been a little difficult to deal with. Helpful always but difficult too. He has a rather Crass way about him. My last email a few weeks ago I decided to take a ery different approach with him. SICKENINGLY SWEET. And guess what... It worked. he has been very pleasant to me since then. He even talked to me for like 15 minutes this morning explaining things thoroughly. Unfortunately this all means more fingerprints, more documents and humf more $$$.
This afternoon I got a request for my driver's history. Guess what? I have just confirmed that I am boring.. No tickets, No violations, No accidents, no points on my license. And that goes back ten years!! So according to the Pa State Police I have committed no crimes. Childline says I am good to children, the FBI says my fingerprints are clean. Now put it all together again for another dossier!!! Should be easy right.. Yeah right nothing is easy...

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Photos..... Are you our son?

So yesterday I finally got photos!!! And I think this is it. After wishing and hoping and being frustrated for the last two months I believe this is the answer to my unanswered prayers. The next step... Figure out how to make this happen!!! It will be rough but I am sure gonna give it all I have. Hoping today to find out his name! I sent off his information to my Doc I have been talking to and hear is her reply.......

Hi Ann-
He is adorable. He is small for age ---based on his weight though I didn't plot him out. I think that Sharon Lehman should weigh in again. I think the eyelid problem is bilateral not just on the left side. But if it is just eyelids his vision may not be affected. And the fact that he attends to toys for a long time is a good sign in my opinion.

Please let me know what she says. I am so sorry that it has taken so long to get your child. You deserve success and soon! I hope you get good news from Kyrgyzstan in the meantime.


Friday, December 18, 2009

12 days

The last 12 days have been just utter frustration. I have hit wall after wall after wall. On the adoption front I have tried many angles while still waiting and working with Kidsfirst to get info on the little Birthday Boy sent to me on Shelby's Birthday. I have sent in homestudies for a local little guy who I have been told I live in the wrong county. A little guy who lives in SD (we live in the wrong state). I have examined medicals on three little boys in Russia. All just seem not quite right. With Shelby I seemed to know... these others just something was not quite there. As heartbreaking as that is.... I am struggling with finances. Hoping that will change soon. I am struggling trying to get a second job. I have left tons of messages with the attorney general in regards to our contractor. We still do not have our bookcase. My current job is fraught with destruction. My long time coworker and friend was fired!!! For not doing anything. And then the other night Corey and I were put in a precarious position. We'll see what happens there.

A blog buddy Cindy Lajoy is facing such frustration on her adoption journey to her two older girls. I pray her journey ends happy!

For today I have much to do. Photo gifts to order and gifts to wrap. Perhaps we will watch Muppets Christmas Carol!

Pray things go well today maybe I will have photos!

Sunday, December 6, 2009

December 6, 2009

So today was Shelby's Birthday. The day sort of came and went since I worked all weekend. Not without me thinking hard about where I want to be, where I was last year and what has not occurred yet. We will have some cake when I go home on Monday or Tuesday.

But what I want to post here is a truly amazing possibility. Today, on Shelby's Birthday of all days. Another post has appeared on Rainbowkids. I found Shelby on Rainbow kids in a very similar fashion. checking back all the time her post just appeared hours after I had just checked. Now tonight I check several times and a new post has appeared. This is what I found........

ChildID / Name Birth Date
KF5 10/1/2008
Location Gender
Unspecified Male
Date Added View Siblings of this Child
Agency KidsFirst Adoption Services LLC

Details This child is available for immediate adoption and we are looking for a family who has a current approved home study. This child is approximately 14 months old - the date of birth listed is approximate. He was born at 32 weeks gestational age. The doctor and teachers are very happy with his developments. He is walking with support (while holding on to furniture or someone else). He plays with toys attentively and is showing good progress. The doctor reports that he is still showing an 11% defecit in weight, but they believe this is due to the prematurity. If you are interested in more information about this child please contact Inna at (317) 843-2300.

Time will tell.. But I feel like God has sent this Birthday present from Shelby to us on her Birthday. I sure don't know how we will financially handle this. But if this is meant to be I am going to let God figure that out.